*(apparently the posts I've made this past week from my Blogger app haven't uploaded and I'm having to do it manually from the computer... oops!)
Today I was SO TIRED after only a few hours of sleep, after staying out way too late with Alex and Jun. Plus, I always feel a little under the weather with the start of school and getting back into the swing of things.
Today I was thinking about an Instagram post my sister shared with me about depression. Anxiety and depression are things I have dealt with most of my life - it was actually one of my biggest concerns moving to a foreign country (but I think this move was one of the best things for me).
Anyway, I've been a little hard on myself since getting back from vacation regarding goals. I have a lot of great goals but I'm still dragging my feet on getting started with them... but, realistically, it has only been one week since I've been back to my house and back to work... but, at the same time, isn't that just an excuse? So I end up in these debates with myself over "laziness" or "rest" and I thought this Instagrammer (is that a word? like YouTuber or blogger?) expressed it really well:
1. Recognize the fog of depression when it is depression. I think coming back from holiday is bound to bring a little fog of depression. Luckily, my job also brings me joy, too. But there is definitely a period of adjustment and THAT'S OKAY. I got a little stuck on the idea that last year I was just floating through life, experiencing as much as I can here in a new country, but that this 2nd year I'll get my life all figured out or something. That's unrealistic. Life is never going to be "figured out" - that's just life. But I can make goals for a next step. I don't have to do everything all at once.
2. Allow yourself to exist in the moment, give yourself breaks, breath and connect. Remember, "Life is to be enjoyed not just endured."
Most importantly, life is a balancing act, and it's my challenge to figure out the balance that works best for me during different phases of my life.
Just some thoughts ✌๐ผ
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